Letters that were never written.Day 5- Your Dreams

Dear Dreams,

If I ever realized something enlightening this year, then it has to be about dreams. The thing is it's easy to dream, but not easy to follow through. It's even more scarier when people around you know about your dreams. The thought of failure becomes even more prominent because you know there are people who hold you high up there just because you dared to dream that dream. Initially, it is flattering in all aspects but as the glossiness fades off..you realize the amount of pressure. The dull reality settles in. All the what ifs start butting in and sooner than later, you start doubting your capabilities.

Many times, I have wanted to give up on my dream. It seems so far off and so unreachable, unless I marry a rich guy. But that's out of the point. I think there's only one thing that keeps me holding. The thought that if I let go of this dream, then am I not letting go of the one thing I am passionate about?

Truth is, all of us have such dreams in us. Some dare to pursue them despite all odds but sadly, there are many who bury all those dreams and move on, forgetting the passion they once had for that particular dream.

Right now, I just hope I don't end up in the latter group.

Yours truly,
Me

All good things put together.

It has definitely been a busy 2-3 weeks. Let me do some real quick updates :D

1) Divesh's Wish Party : MEGA SUCCESS. I loved each and every moment of the planning and execution. One of the most most special wishes, because of the fact that it was for him. As per usual, there were alot of learning points to take away. But I think the most important ones were about Divesh himself.  I feel very honoured to have granted a wish for a guy who is like family to me. Not to forget that his wish was truly one-of-a-kind! Keep rocking dude!  :D

2) India: I have like less than 2 more days to fly to India! CAN'T WAIT. It's been 3 years since I last saw everyone and I am so freaking excited. I love Singapore. I truly love this place and I know that there is a high probability that my future is going to be in this sunny island. But there's always this tinge of excitement/joy/elation that leaps through me whenever I go back to my homeland. Initially, I used to think that I am not appreciative of Singapore, the land that has given me this future. Only God knows what I would be doing if I was still in India. But it was years down the row that I realized that I can love both countries and there's nothing wrong in that. So yup. Can't wait for the terribly hot sun to hit me mercilessly, for the dust to clog up my nostrils and the extremely unhealthy food to make me fatter :D

3) School: Benjamin Yang is leaving SP. How should I react? Honestly? I don't know. Do I pump my fists in the air and make an elated sound for being ridden of his sometimes obnoxious attitude or do I wallow in sadness for missing a teacher who only tried to give his best in what he did (despite the outcome being different)?

On another note, the topic of attachments have been introduced. Like finally. Seems like the only options right now are Singapore and China. WHAT?! China is good okayyyy. Especially since it's going to snow at the posted area. Woo Wee said they are trying for other countries too. Let's see what turns up. Actually, either way I am cool with anything. Be it local or overseas.

4) Enrique and Adele: *crazy fan mode* I am truly mesmerized by their voices. There's something magnetic in it. I only started listening to Adele after Alexis introduced some songs. Usually when it comes to music, I lean towards tamil music. I am into one particular guy, A.R.Rahman. I still listen to his songs from like 1990s, the golden period of ARR. When it comes to english music, I am kinda selective and it takes time for me to be fully involved in it.

So.That's about it for now. It might be some time from now before I do the next update.

Cheerio :)

Pictures speak a thousand.

Mark Twain: You gave me my first ever classic literature experience.

Rainy days in India: Let's go boating

Follow the compass: Your heart.

Most prominent part of my childhood: Swings.

Damn. I forgot to credit the photos. Really sorry about that. Sincere thanks to people who own these photos.

Letters that were never written.Day 4- Your Sibling

Dear Bro,

Remember the time when I was about 5 you rubbed medicated oil (that is used for headache) on my thumb just so that I will be rid of the habit of suckling my thumb? Dude, I won’t ever forgive you for that. Not really a pleasant memory you know. Not that it stopped me from suckling it till I was seven. But the point is, you have tormented me from day one. From the earliest of memories, my brother, which is you, was always the bully. Remember the times when we fought fist to fist. Oh man, I lost count actually. I swear, for the most part of my childhood I shrieked in horror, screamed in anger, burst into tears when I saw you.

But that was when I was just a midget. We grew a little more and I was in secondary school and you were about to graduate from there. You were the one who helped me through the first ever stumble I had while entering teen hood. That was probably the first ever incident that made me look up to you.

 Years down the row, I wonder what happened. And I answer my own question by realizing life happened. The cat and dog fights decreased and I am sure I didn’t hear any more of those shouting matches. Gradually I started looking forward to a life with such a brother. I learnt to appreciate your lame humour, I even learnt to admire your uncanny talent for business. But mostly I enjoyed your noisy presence. The way you would fill a room with life with your very entrance. 

Absence makes the heart grow fonder. I realized how true it is when you left to pursue your studies. The house is definitely quieter and the dinner table has a huge gap.

The years are rolling past us and time is whizzing by. All I can say is: Your annoying little sister loves you because she knows she can’t get a better brother than you.

Yours truly,

Me.

Have you ever felt what's it like to sit in a class and not understand anything? The teacher's just talking and you are totally blanked out. To me, it's one of the worst feelings ever. There's a pressure building in my head and all I want to do is to tell the lecturer to shut up. Wait for me.
Worse still, this lecturer makes it a point that we don't write/take down notes while he's talking. And he doesn't give notes. Rather he makes us fill in all those huge chunks of gaps. Just tells me how much spoon fed I have been by my teachers throughout primary and secondary school. That feeling of frustration is further enhanced when you actually see students who are able to understand, retain the information and  take down their notes. All I think of now is running away from this class.

It sucks when you aren't an auditory learner. You just hear this jumble of words which swim in your mind. They threaten to overflow and make your brain juices leak. Ok I am just crapping. But yes, it's an horrible feeling.

Plan for next week: I am bringing in a voice recorder and recording his lecture. At least I can play back and absorb everything slowly at home.


I might as well update all my other stuff. My class did venipuncture on Monday for practical. It's the coolest thing ever. You need immense concentration on the needle and also ensure that your hands are steady. Strangely, now that I have tried it on another person, I am excited to do it again :D

Today is cca fair.And I am joining tennis! :D :D :D


Cheerio.

Resolutions.

As much as this was due about 4 months back, it's never too late to write one now right? Especially with the beginning of second year in poly. So here goes..

 [In no particular order]

1. Revise what I have been taught everyday. At least, that day's portion.
2. Finish what I am supposed to finish on that day itself. Be it homework or cleaning my room.
3. Eat more healthily. Which means cut down my chocolate intake.
4. Make time for everyone.
5. Be more proactive.

Ok,that's about all I can think of. I can probably write even more, but will I follow? Honestly, following all these is going to be a herculean task.

First day of school was really fun! :D Met many new people (didn't really interact though). Learnt how to draw blood from a...dummy.The real thing is next week. My awesome partner or rather pitiful victim is going to be Vivian.I apologize in advance for whatever mishap that is going to occur.

That's about it for now.Cheerio.  

Letters that were never written.Day 2- Your parents

Hiiii Parents,

Sorry for the shouting matches, the sour faces and the stupid arguments. But that's what makes us a family right? :D

<3 you peeps.

Yours truly,

Me