Whirlpool

I miss last year.

This year has been a whirlpool of emotions..and come to think of it..it's only been a month since 2011 started.I hope I don't screw up this year :/
I feel so scared of lagging behind,of not accomplishing what I set out to do.It's a feeling that makes me drown in sorrow and turmoil.It feels like age is finally catching up and I am truly turning and feeling 19. People around me have been expecting so much more from me. Heck,I am starting to have expectations on myself. That's the most scariest thing of all. I have always gone with the flow and never really pressurized myself to do anything. But now disappointment settles in heavily when I don't accomplish.

Tracy's leaving tonight and I am so very anxious.I don't know.It's really stupid I guess. I think it will settle when she settles down properly. As much as I am happy for her,the new and fresh beginning..I am also worried for her.Trace,I know this is a public confession but screw all that. I want you to know that I am always here,we all are and yes forgetting you would be impossible for me (: I really can't wait for July to come around!

Exams are around the corner and once again I am so very scared. I think I am going to stay back everyday to study in school.Gotta pick up speed.Jia You everyone! :D

Pekanbaru was bliss.I really had so much spending those four days at the estate.Away from technology and unnecessary disruptions. Spending time with nature made me realize how much I have been missing out in life.Sigh.IF ONLY Singapore isn't so competitive and harsh.

Random Thought: If I were to give up on you,it would be like giving up on myself.